Layla Taylor opens up about a past event that she believes played a part in her current struggles. The star of “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives”, Layla Taylor, revealed that an experience behind the scenes of a modeling job had left a lasting impact and reinforced unhealthy expectations.
Layla Taylor’s Modeling Career Moment
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Taylor described a “weird experience” she had with other models while getting ready. She told Page Six, “I’ve experienced weird things before.” “I was at a show I attended, and I was hanging out in the morning with some models while we were getting glammed up. I asked, ‘Does anybody want anything from Starbucks?” I’m going to DoorDash some foods.
“This was before I started to have an eating disorder again,” she said. “And all the other girls were like ‘No, we do not eat before shows’.” The interaction, she explained reinforced harmful ideas about the entertainment industry, including the stress to be “bone-thin” and avoid food.
Taylor says Ford Models Rejection Took A toll
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Taylor also spoke about a difficult moment that was shown on the show: being rejected by Ford Models. “That rejection is when someone looks at you and says no,” she said. “That’s very hard for someone like me who has such bad body issues and confidence issues.”
Taylor has a new perspective on the experience, despite the setback. She called it a “blessing disguise” and explained that she signed with an agency which “felt like home.”
She said, “Especially with what she deals with internally.” “I wanted an agency that would be more about friendship than business, and I feel that is what I found.”
Layla Taylor says eating disorders are ‘lonely and exhausting’
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Taylor has channeled her experiences into her new work. She launched a 30-piece line with Showpo called “Becoming by Layla Taylor” which is about “choosing oneself, over and again.”
The reality star revealed that she has recently started treatment for her eating disorders and stopped taking GLP-1. She wrote: “I’ve been silently struggling with an eating disorder for the past two years. I thought I had left it behind in highschool.” “It has been exhausting and lonely, fighting a mental battle while trying to appear as if everything was okay and receiving comments on my body every day.”
Taylor acknowledged that the recovery process is not easy but she said she was committed to it. Taylor said, “I’m still figuring out how to choose love of self over criticism of self.” “But I still fight, not just because of me, but also because my sons deserve a healthy and present mom.”
Layla Taylor Admits to Ongoing Struggle
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Taylor has been very open about how serious her battle is. The model said, “I don’t feel like I’ll be small enough inside my head. I know that it is affecting me. I’m always tired because I don’t have enough food. “And my body hurts when I go to sleep every night.”
She continued: “I literally lie down and if my legs are touching, it hurts, because I don’t enough fat to cushion it.” I know it’s too much, and I am taking it too far. But I can’t stop.
Layla Taylor gets real about online comments
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Taylor also spoke about how the social media responses have affected her mentality throughout her struggle. The “Secret Lives of Mormon Wives'” star admitted at one point that comments about her weight felt validating.
“I feel that for a long period of time, people have been calling me sick or saying I look sick or am too thin. It was almost like a dopamine high for me, because I felt with an eating disorder. It’s almost like, “Someone is noticing all the work I’m doing to look this way and it’s finally paying off.”
Over time, this constant scrutiny became overwhelming. She said, “I can’t post a simple advertisement to earn money to support my wife and children without a bunch comments.” “It’s getting so bad that I’m not even posting ads anymore because I can’t get away from it.”
Support is available for those who are struggling with eating disorders. Call the ANAD helpline for free at 1-888-375-767. The Layla Taylor Exposes Modelling Culture Triggers originally appeared on The Blast
